Focused/Nursing

So the past couple of weeks (2 wks to be exact) I have been transferring all my energy into work, myself, friends, loved ones, and most important NURSING. I have been slacking off applying to nursing school for fear that i either wont get in or for fear that if i do get in i might achieve something amazing. A friend of mine told me not to be afraid and that I WILL get in. :sigh: I kno she is right but i guess i kno i am the ONLY one standing in my way. I have been so busy working non stop but in the midst of all that I continue to get my apps filled out and transcripts sent out. The only thing left for me to do is just mail them lol (oh and finish this 1 essay ugh lol). I felt like me putting this on my blog is a constant reminder to me that i WILL be in nursing school for the Fall 2010 semester. I mean i like my job but @ times i dont feel appreciated for the hard work that i do...so im focusing on getting my career off the ground :) Im trying to put everything into fruition (such a cool word) and achieve my dreams with God's help and through the constant prayers from friends and family. A friend of mine also had a Blessing Board of all the things that she wants so i guess this is my virtual blessing board...well thats all for now.

Jet Setters!

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Snow Prayers

So this snow storm seems to have hit the south worst than the north. I woke up this morning to get ready for work and looked outside the window and there was a dust of snow on the streets. My dad looked @ me as i was about to leave and clan Cleophus off and said u not driving to work! Its gonna be at least a foot of snow in NB. So i quickly opted for the train lol. In the car he told me DC got @least 18 inches and immediately my disposition changed. I know a few ppl in that area...I just hope and pray that my friends and love one is safe down there and staying warm during this wintery mess...

Thats it for now...

Intense Thoughts

Clanking hangers, sweet smell of the sneaker store... Distant I Love You's that once filled the air seem to dissipate with the passing days... Passionate jokes, gentle breeze of a newborn fill my lungs after each shower I take... Intense Thoughts or just memories of you?... Part of a healing process or  torment of my heart that once knew you but now must take lessons to try to forget such a skill that was mastered once upon a New Years Day... Etched in skin forever something that barely lasted through the weathered years... Like nature erodes the most beautiful of rocks i live with the bad crumbling what we once built up... The blame not placed on 1 parties but 2... I shield myself from the outside world to focus on my faults and look in the mirror only to hang my head in shame... Its time for the Narcissist to to look past the reflection and listen to the lessons of the water... The sands of the hourglass has held on long enuff... Time is no longer on our side and as these Intense Thoughts crowd my heart I clear my head to accept my imperfections and wonder...

Angel Cry

Its been a little while since i blogged on here, a year to be exact but it seems that each time i do it has something to do with me venting about a broken heart...well an old friend of mind told me i needed to figure out my emotions and why i can express any feelings other than positive ones lol, so this is my journey to my dreams and my path...hope you all enjoy.

I'm writing not for anyone but myself. It seems that I rarely have n e one to talk to so if what I am going thru helps anyone or if anyone can relate and give feedback on any topic all is welcome.

*I heard a song today as I was driving to the store by Mariah Carey and Ne-Yo. Automatically my heart began to weep and repressed memories resurfaced, the song was called "Angel Cry" and it just reminded me about a lot of bullshit that my ex and I went through and just made me think about how unhealthy our relationship was and that we couldnt seem to get it right....now back tracking to this morning, I woke up and just had the urge to read my ex's book all over again (really good book even still). Now the poems in there just made me think about all the us and downs that come with love and it hurt me because I have been there with my ex through the ups and downs and she has confided in me about the hardships that came with love. Now i was suppose to be my ex's "soul mate" but looking back on it i feel like i just crushed the soul. There were a couple of poems that were about me and knowing what we just went through and reading those poems I realized I was an ass, so was my ex but my ex changed while I held grudges and remained the same. In no way shape or form am I saying what I did was right I just kno now that it's my turn to grow up and learn how to FORGIVE because all the while i thought i have but the truth is I havent. If I did then I wouldnt be the same person I was 4yrs ago when our rship started going down the drain...*EPIPHANIES*

Angel Cry Lyrics

Mariah:
I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Ne-Yo:
I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenity
You took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me

But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone
And

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye

'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
http://www.elyricsworld.com/angel_cry_lyrics_mariah_carey_ft_ne-yo.html
In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry

Mariah & Ne-Yo:
C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Oh babe, the angels cry